HAPPYNESS AND FUTURE!!!

I want to share with you all especially my friends who are having a hard time and one of my friends who said that he’s not happy and committing suicide is one of the happiness…

Something happens in our life will not determine our happiness…it’s more the way we react on what happens…one person sees the beautiful girl and the other person sees a ugly bitch…some person sees paris hilton’s pussy is beautiful and the other person sees her pussy like a wizard’s sleeves(I don’t know,my friends told me about it..you think I watch porn is it?)let me give you one example in other people’s daily life…min just lost his job,he decides that he is having a opportunity to have a new work experience,to explore new possibilities and a new adventure in his life…his fucker,black has the same circumstances and decides to jump off a KOMTAR and end it all…one man rejoices and one man commits suicide!!!one man sees disaster and the other sees an opportunity…

Being happy is not an easy task.it can be one of the greatest challenges that we face and we had to put determination on it…maturity means taking a responsibility for our own happiness and choosing to focus on what we have rather than on what we haven’t…we can’t ask someone to point at you with a gun and ask “BE HAPPY OR ELSE!”..it’s you decide what you want in your life…we are the one control our happiness andto be happy,we need to focus on happy thoughts…If you allow a bad remark to occupy your mind,you will suffer…most people remember compliments for few minutes and insults for years…they become MPPP,carrying around trash that should be thrown few years ago…Ex,an old lady say “I still remember how he said that I had an ugly pussy and it’s looks stupid back in 1962!”any compliments she received even yastreday will be forgotten but she still talking about her pussy back in 1962…

I visited an old man from the hospital,he had a cancer which it’s at a terminal state…he was still happy even though he’s going to die…I asked him how come he came to be so happy…he said, “boy,I always look in the future and decides what to do on the next day and the next day and just say everyday..if I wake up the next day I’m very happy about it and live every moment of it…if not,at least I’m happy about it..”I can say every patient will do that…but sadly,he passed away on the next day…maybe he wanted to share this message to anyone like me before he died…I know that he’s still happy in the past and even though he’s gone now…so,why don’t you do the same thing…think about the future…plan what to do for the next day and next day…every morning,when you wake up and say “I had enough of misery,heartache,loneliness and I decided to change things…I decide to be a lot happier than I ever been before.”want to be a happy person…why don’t you start now?may you be well and happy…

TOO FAR GONE!!!

I should warn you,

Things you’re feeling,aren’t normal now.

Think I need you.

It’s not easy,let you go somehow.

Now we’re too far gone.

Hope is such a waste.

Every breath you take,you give me burden’s bitter taste.

You promise that you’d stay.

You say you want to go.

Your lips provide a shelther for the things that I don’t know.

Please speak slowly,my heart is learning.

Teach me heartache,stop this burning now.

Wishful thinking,patience shrinking,bliss is far away.

North is calling.

Now I’m falling at your feet.

Please stay….

FORGIVENESS!!!

As you all know what happened in school during inter class and inter boards games…megatron was being an asshole…if you don’t know,read the previous posts which are called bastard !!! and bastard 2 in my blog…they were the most hot topics in school recently…it’s about how asshole can someone be…

Well,after that incident,everything was back to normal but the only thing changed was a lot of people didn’t talk to him anymore…some would talk to him because this problems didn’t involve them or talk a bit and forget about it and some of them have two faces(back stabber)…they will said bad things behind him till no pieces and nice to him when he’s there…I saw it in my own eyes…I was talking about the incident to a guy and he started to say bad things about him but when megatron was there,he was so nice to him…kind of fuck up to see that type of guy…I mean can you be yourself and follow your feelings…the rest are like still talk to him but that much…days after days,water jug sent megatron an e-mail advising him on what to do and asked him to correct himself…

In the end,megatron realized his mistakes and wanted to correct himself due to water jug’s speech that can move a herd of elephants…water jug should do a party for election and changes the government to American style…UNITED STATES OF MALAYSIA(USM)…he’ll be the first president…jk…anyway,mega willing to change himself and says sorry to everyone…the thing that I don’t understand was why he want to changed only when water jug sent him an mail?couldn’t he think by himself…he’s smart…he could see that we treated him differently but why he can see his mistakes when he got the mail…something that I don’t understand till now…

Well,he’s changed and everything was back to normal in school…glad for him…hehe…anyway,what can I say about this post?all of us make mistakes and all we have to do is to learn from it to become a better person…I know that I’m also a bad guy…I shouldn’t write those two posts about him…I’ll telling the truth but I added some “beautiful words” in that posts because I was angry when I read his blog that he said that he was correct…so,I wrote it in anger…so,bert..if you are reading..i’m just want to say sorry about the posts but I’ll not delete it…muahaha(evil laugh)…let you know your mistakes in my blog…no hard feeling…I’m really happy for him that he want to change…

In life,we have to forgive each other for their mistakes…unforgiveness is the one of the greatest causes of sickness because our sour mind creates a sour body…it’ll stop our happiness in life and it’ll never got anywhere…it’s very dangerous…we are avoiding the real issue which is to do something about the problem..it’s always our choice to choose what we want to do…whether get on with it and live it the now or just stuck our ass to grudges and upsets of the past…

GIVING UP...NO WAY!!!(PART 2)

As you know my history from part 1…don’t know,read it first before reading this one…I just want to tell you guys who have dreams that you like to do but no talent…continue to try your best because you will get what you want as long as you work hard for it…there’s ain’t no such things as a free lunch…this is also for the one who are going to take big exam like STPM…I know it’s kind of stress and it make you feel like giving up in studies…but what the hell…you still going to take STPM,why don’t you give a effort on it…if you can understand this chapter even though you read it twice,read it 100 times till you understand…do what you can do it…follow your dreams and do it…boldness has genius,power and magic in it…if you fail,hey….that’s fine because at least you tried your best and enjoyed it anyway…it’ll give you a satisfaction…this is what I’m going to try…my biggest task is STPM…I’m going to try my fucking best to make my dream come true…it’ll give me happiness…the secret of being happy is not in doing what one likes,but liking what one does….so,my friends…I hope that you’ll try your best in everything you do..look and learn from the children,they absorb themselves totally in everything they do…they manage to stay totally involved in whatever they are doing,whether it be watching butterfly,drawing pictures,building sandcastle or whatever else they choose to devote their energies to…that’s the beautiful things of young children…this is the way to live and it’ll bring us a lot of happiness…there is movie that it’ll give you motivation…the movie is called ‘PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS’ starring WILL SMITH and his son…very sad movie and a bit of humour …it’s about a poor father struggling to get money to support his son…hope you watch it…sleepy now…good nite to you all and sweet dreams…

GIVING UP...NO WAY!!!

I want to share with you all about one part of the history about my life…don’t take it as something that I want to boast around…it’s for someone who have no talent in something like me and feel like giving up in something that you like but you just can’t do it…it’s about something that I didn’t like to do but I already love it…that’s tennis…

When I was small,I played badminton and I changed to tennis because my sister interested…so,I joined her…time after time,she did well and had good results in tennis but I didn’t do well…so,my dad sent us to one coaching service that’s called FTS(francis tennis service or some of us called fucking tennis service)…the coach is Francis Su,a so called ex-national player…at first,it was ok for us but soon I was looked down by him…he like my sister because she’s an excellent student…my sister in squad 4.5 and I was in squad 1.5(for intermediate player)…I got less attention during coaching and the only that I’m good thing was picking tennis balls because that was what I did when I was there…the bastard said that I’m not good and no talent at all because I have no power…quite sad but feel like giving up…I still try my best there and try to learn everything from there…then,I got few okay results like quarterfinal in states tournament and made it to squad 4…quite happy about it but still doing the same routine like picking up tennis balls and something new that’s always got scold by him… ‘this is wrong…that is wrong…you are not good,better don’t learn’…it’s really pissed me off…even his excellent students from squad 4 and 4.5 laughed at me and looked down on me…my sister always support me and watch every match that I played…at least got someone pity on me…hehe…then,a coach from FTS willing to coach me properly but it didn’t last long because he retired…so,still under that bastard…again,he still doing the same old routine on me…then one day,I couldn’t stand it and I shouted “hiong kan,tiam la mak cibai” at him..then,we argued until he called my parents(he couldn’t take the argument due to my fast talking)..i got scolded from my parents and I quitted his fucking tranning…that time,my sister already retired…

Actually,I didn’t know what to do…so,I try to learn by myself…I went to CRC(Chinese recreation club) to play with some of the players…at first,I played with veterans and some of them were ex-national player or ex-states player(last time,a lot of national players were from Penang…penang is still famous till I’m the last junior player in penang to be in top player in malaysia )..and you know what was the worst thing?that bastard told everyone that I played with old men to his students and the news spread fast in penang…as usual,when they saw me,they laughed at me…I didn’t care because veterans have the experience and gave me tips on strategies…soon,I got to played with the adults…thanks to Arthur chin,MING GOOD HOTEL manager(my so called sponsor and my mentor)continued to play with them till I was ready to play tournament…then,shit happened…I got terrible asthma and hurt my right shoulder(can’t recalled the problem)…so,I had to stop for a moment…after I recover from my injury,I started to play again…then,I played a state tournament…the results?I lost in the second round because I was having difficultly in breathing due to asthma …things got worst but I still never give up…played and played and played till I made it…find every solutions like if I have no power,I trained my legs to be quick in the court by skipping and do more on running drills…I even watched tennis matches from TV to learn to play like them…I wanted to prove them that I don’t need power,got brain can d…so,I made it to semis…when I’m a better player,they(FTS gang) said I would never beat their top player.then ibeat their top player,and they said,’yes,but he will never be no.1 in penang’.then I was top player in penang and they said ‘yes,but this is his limit,he can’t be no.1 in Malaysia’then I was no.1…it’s not that I needed that kind of motivation,it’s certainly a little bit of satisfaction out of proving those people wrong…there was once during the semis of the adults tournament playing with a Singaporean..it lasted for 4 hours plus…during the match,I got cramped for both legs in the second set…in the deciding set,I was down 2-5…my mom asked me to retired because I couldn’t chase the ball anymore but I still kept playing and ran for the ball even though it hurts a lot…finally,I won 7-5 but lost in the final..at least I’m happy…to be continued…

CROSS COUNTRY...AH!!!

Well,everything begins well ends well…cross country was my last event for me to participate in SXI for this year and it’s my final year in school…damn sad…for 7 seven years I have been studying in SXI…all the good times and bad times happened in SXI…a lot of things I learnt from the school to be a better person in the future…haih..wish I’m still form 1 and start all over again but what to do…life must go on…so,I’m very very very proud to be a Xaverian…

Let’s start with a the route of the cross contry…at first,start at youth park…then,run to botanical garden then U-turn…then,run till some rich ass place where all the rich people stay there…on the way,you’ll see a B-E-A-UTIFUL bungalow…looks like a castle with all the naked men statue…look the way the artist make a sculpture of their balls…I called it, DISNEY CASTLE from the moment I saw it since form 1…then,you run back to youth park…I can’t tell you the way specifically but their will be a sign board to show the way…if you can’t read..then fuck it and follow someone who is running because I think that you can’t be first in the cross country…hehe..jk…

Few days before the cross country,one of my friends teased me that I can’t make it to the finish line because I’m weak and I had no stamina for long distance anymore…even the doctor told me that I can’t recover my stamina easily…sounds like shit but I’ll try my best to run non-stop…On that day,I didn’t take my breakfast again like what happened on penang bridge marathon…I just took coffee and glucolin(some sort like energy boost for a short period of time)…well,my friend,carrot fetched me to youth park…it was really cold on that day due to rain last night…

Then,we reached there around 7.15 am…then went to the starting point to meet our friends…a lot of students were there and it’s colourful with all the colourful house shirts they wore…anyway,before the race starts,we have a warm up session and it was conduct by one same old Indian guy wearing a long tight pants and a headband…looks like poh hiau to me…a warm up that conducted by him was the same old routine(a bit of new one too)…I was really enjoyed it with my friends…maybe it’s because of our final year and we enjoyed every moment of it…honestly,that instructor really suitable for sex therapy(for someone that don’t know how to do sex) and teach the noobs with very positions because most of his exercise more on ‘banging people’…it helps the boys in the future but for girls,NO WAY!!!I saw Robert talked to Rain(R+R=like brother) but for a while…they still can’t heal it because Robert had left a scar on Rain(on his balls more specifically..hehe..jk..) that very hard to get away…

After that,the main event…the race…group 1 started first that was us…I jogged in the beginning…the hardest part was going up the hill…kind of torture and I could feel my legs muscle straining…I also feel my knees stated to make cracking sound as usual because I cracked my knee caps when I was small…after that,everything was okay(not that long)..soon,I started to feel very tired and starting to black out…my legs starting to tighten up like going to have cramp(I think)…too dramatic d…let’s just say I was really really tired but I still continue to jog and didn’t want to stop to walk because I believe that I could do it…as long as I worked hard,I could make it…

In the end,I make it to the finishing line and I got placing but I couldn’t remember it…the good news was I beat carrot…haha…he’s the one said that I’m weak…now,you can kiss my ass…haha..jk…I didn’t said that he motivated me(a bit like 5% of motivation)…it’s what I want…I told myself that I would prove myself that I’m fit enough and nothing can stop me to run non-stop even the doctor said that my body can’t take this race yet…this what I learnt from the race,although I was not top 15 runner in the race…I’m still happy about what I did on that day…I learnt that everything is possible as long as you try your best and never give up in your life…even though my body is weak,this will not stop me running non-stop all the way to finishing line…finally,I have something to prove myself tha I can do it…like Andrew Matthews said “LOSING HURTS,BUT IT HURTS EVEN MORE WHEN YOU REALISE THAT YOU HAVEN’T DONE YOUR BEST’…

HOT TEMPER BABY BACK BITCH!!!

Let’s start with a history of one guy…let’s call him H(you’ll know why)…last year,H was a new student and he’s from Hutchings…Well,H is a smart student due to his good SPM result…at first,he was a very quite and innocent boy in the class…so,we try to talk to him and we found out that he’s a very nice guy…but time after time,he’s changed…H began to talk big in class and thinks that he’s the coolest…H said a lot of jokes in class but I think his jokes were kinda lame shit …I didn’t find it very funny at all…some of my friends also have the same thoughts…some of us laughed for a while due to his effort telling jokes to everybody in class…we just cool about it but the worse thing is that H cannot control his temper…Hot temper bitch(that’s why I call him H for Hot temper)…if People disturb him a bit or did something funny to him,his balls burst out…starting to show his ‘beh syiok’ face and said the word ‘childish’(I already got bored with that word)

If he did something like we did,it’s okay for him…it’s like he do is ok but we do is not ok…kind of shit…

OK..this was what happened last week…my friend,megatron’s only friend(let’s call him M)passed me a roll of nylon string to me…actually,he is a very nice guy and very helpful…very smart also…continue the story…then water jug snatched it from M’s hand and threw at LA…due to his coordination problem(haha..just kidding,like to tease him with that due to what happened at green hike) ,he threw out of range but managed to hit LA.It also hit H who was taking a cat nap…H woke up and stared at us including carrot,oscar,water jug,megatron’s only friend and of course,me…we plus LA were laughing and enjoying the fun…water jug and I also started to point everywhere happily to accused who threw it…then,water jug said sorry to H but that fucker’s volcano head erupted and said in hokkien “so,big but still act like children” to us…at first,I thought it was refer to water jug but to wang lee hom’s research…lee hom told me that if he said in hokkien,he refer to us because H only scold water jug in English…so,we felt kanneh at H…made us no mood only…mak pubok…if H do something crazy,it’s ok for him la…but when we do,it’s not ok for him la…but later,we forget about it and just said he’s like this one…

Then few minutes before school dismissed,H told Frankie that he didn’t want to join our airband anymore(the airband is like playing a band without instruments and post it in YOUTUBE)due to the problem just now…I was quite mad about it and I told Frankie to postpone it and find a new person…so,he’s not a big shot or a big guy putting his big dick in the airband…he just a skinny fuck…we still can find other people…I’m ok with it but just shocked because H still mad about the small problem…like Cantonese people say “siu hei”means kecil hati…if he said that we are childish,I’ll ask him go to a mirror,pull down his pants and check whether he has pubic hair or not because I think that he is the one more childish than us…we forget about the small problem even though he scolded us quite loud by him but H easily got angry over a small problem and his anger last for a long time…damn…that’s not really cool…tell me if I’m wrong…I’ll take your advice if I’m wrong…

The funny thing is he has a GF who is crazy and very nice girl…I don’t know whether H scolded her badly or treat her nicely…if treat her nicely,all I can say is that H has two faces…if they marry,I think H will show his true colours…which is not cool…it’s like this one because I had seen a lot of couples like this.I talk to a wife whose husband is very hot temper…she told me that last time,he’s very romantic and treat her nicely…after they married,her husband show his real and true colors…kinda torture for her and that’s why child and wife abuse are high in malaysia…but hey,don’t get me wrong…some people willing to change because of LOVE…that’s the power of LOVE…maybe H and his GF will have happy ending in the future…nobody knows not even GOD…

Actually,H is a very nice guy but time after time,he’s changed and become a hot temper bitch…and I’ll never understand him because he has two faces and can’t be himself…so,I don’t really know him well…what can I say?just wish good luck in the future…hehe..just want him to know his weakness and correct himself…this what I called him hot temper baby back bitch…hehehe…boink..